If I am learning one thing as a pastor (or director, or whatever it is I am) it is that I am more broken than I once thought and even more reliant on God’s grace to carry out my mission here. I can try to minister in my own ability but it becomes a sham and no one will be inclined to follow my savior when it is forced. As I realize this more and more I long for growth in Christ more than anything.
I want to be daily astounded by what I receive. I want the gospel to be my defining truth and treasure. I want my sermons to come from the overflow of what the Holy Spirit is doing in my heart. I want to own my brokenness and in a greater way surrender to Christ’s ownership of me. I want the young adults around me to see Christ, not me.
Lord you are breaking me. I need more of you. I surrender to you. Move here. Use me as you will as I am faithful to you. Bring a gospel quake to this place and let the world see you through the way we live and strive to give you glory. Some days I don’t grow as fast as I wish, but in you I am new and have something new to say.